resolve:
I’m barely 1/4 way thru this month but I’ve been finding that things are slowly reverting to the way things were when we first got here. They started breaking down things that we put up to make things easier. Word in the dirt is that they’re planning to move us, but that seems unnecessary for us to do seeing that we’ll be leaving in two months. By the time we get things settled, we’ll be up and gone again. People are once again making stupid and careless mistakes, I guess people started revamping their to do list for when they get back. The other shops are trying to pin their mistakes on me; nothing new. I’ve come to the realization that fear and self-preservation walk together hand in hand for people without honor. I don’t want to deal with the disappointment of being hit with another extention so I cope by telling myself that, I’m not getting home until I’m on the plane headed there. I won’t lie, I too have been rushing but I’m not running like everyone else. My superiors thought it was funny when I tried to report myself for breaking a pressure washer wand on accident. I guess that somewhere deep inside I’m still that same kid that left the note on the car window.
resolution:
I usually wait until February or march to make a resolution because during Christmas and new years there are so many things going on with friends and family because it’s a time of the year that we get together with the people we’re close to. With that being said, I always found that the resolutions I made for the new year would never really last long. I would be like the one timers at 24 hour fitness who would waste their money on a year of gym member ship with the will power to go through a couple weeks of a work out. If there’s anything that I want to accomplish this year, I want to be more open about my personal feelings. I want to know in my heart and mind that I don’t have to do things by myself, because I’m never alone. Though I may feel abandoned sometimes at work, I’m never abandoned in life; I want to be able to know that without a shadow of a doubt. That is my goal for 2010.
Wow Les! I didn’t realize you are such a good writer! I enjoy reading your blogs! I love your honesty, your sincerity and humor. Your “God-moments” are so profound. I’m glad you’ve found an outlet where you can be yourself. Though many times, you struggle with different things, at times even tormented, things are put into perspective when you remember who you are in Christ. I’m very proud of you, all that you’ve sacrificed for the sake of others. Stay strong in Christ, fully relying on him. Remember the shield I gave you with the Scripture in Joshua. He will never leave you, nor Forsake you! You will never be abandoned in life. I won’t allow it!
Oh yeah, when you get back, I’d love to come out and watch you surf…maybe take some pictures too…if you don’t mind.
Love you cuz, Aileen