So there I stood amongst everyone else in the crowd. It was an informal gathering so everyone was relaxed, and as we all waited people whispered what they anticipated would be good and bad news alike. As our commanding officer exited his tent we all stood at attention. When we recieved the command to go at ease all eyes became fixated on him. As he started to talk we already knew what was coming. All of the talks of what could be turned into what is and what isn’t. What we found out was that we were extended until march. I don’t know the exact date of when I’ll be back but my heart sank. My heart sank deeper than it ever had during my time here so far. I needed time to process and that’s why I had to leave everything in a cliff hanger. I’m sorry if I gave everyone the wrong impression that I might be coming back sooner than expected but then I guess I’m just that good at writing stuff. haha! Well yeah minus the sloppy errors. XP I just needed some time to calm down and decompress a little. Everyone told me for the next couple of days after hearing the news that I looked dead and distracted. I’m not going to lie… I did feel dead inside, I kept on asking myself, why am I pressing on even though I don’t feel like doing it. I then remembered that I have a promise to keep. I chose this so I need to see it through until the end. Me being here longer doesn’t change when I can stop doing this so there’s no reason to mope around and be sad. It’s a little while longer but you all were around for when I found out that I was deploying. Things change, and they’ll continue to change, I’m just going to stick to expecting to be here until I’m up in the sky and on the way home. It’s the only way to do it. In life, we can’t rely on false hope to drive us; doing so will only instigate failure and lead us astray from our path. We need real dreams to give us real direction, only then will we reach the real finish line.
The Month of Friday: Calm
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